My sun and stars

They say you fall in love with three people in your life, ones to teach you a lesson, ones to show you what you don’t want, and the lastly the one you never want to let go, your life partner. I can honestly and soundly say I’ve had all three of these people in my life, hence my three failed engagements. 

My life partner and I arejtbseeing eye to eye at the moment and it’s ripping e to shreds. It makes me second think, maybe this isn’t the path I’m supposed to take. Maybe somebody else is out there and this was just a temporary fix to a broken heart. I’m not sure about anything anymore really I feel like my thoughts are a constant monsoon flooding my mind. My emotions are a hurricane in my chest and I’m not sure what to think or feel anymore. 
I am wholely convinced that real love doesn’t exist any more. That people just want some one to do things for them. That they don’t love the person they love the things said person does for them. 

All I know is no matter what he will always be my sun and stars, my life partner, my best friend. 


Sometimes I Feel

Sometimes I feel sad 

even though I’m doing what I love.

Sometimes I feel lonely

 even though I’m in a crowded room.

Sometimes I feel ignored

 even though I’m talking.

Sometimes I feel unimportant 

even though I’m told otherwise.

Sometimes I feel useless 

even though I’m depended on.

Sometimes I feel scared

 even though I’m smiling.

But that’s only sometimes.

And I know I’m going to be okay.

Because I am everything I’ve ever 

wanted to be.

And I have a life like no other.
Thanks for reading,