Tiny Handcuffs

Someone once said a wedding ring is the tinest pair of handcuffs so chose your partner wisely. 


For months now that saying has rattled around in my head nonstop. 

I have no clue why but just the thought of marriage now scares me. What if he is only with me for the kids? What if he doesn’t really love me? Am I ok with the rest of my life being like this? 

I love my partner with all of my heart and I am in love with him. But what if he really doesn’t feel the same? I think everyone goes through this when in a serious relationship and not married yet. 

People say marriage is just a piece of paper but for me it’s so much more.

It’s choosing to change who I am my name and all to become one with you. It’s choosing to love you and only you, it’s choosing to promise to be by your side through the worst and best of times, it’s choosing to love someone so much more than yourself that you would bind yourself for enternity to them. 

For me marriage is so much more than a piece of paper. My ring symbolizes so much more than what people think. 
I’m just scared he won’t want me to be his partner and is with me for the wrong reasons. That he’d marry me and second guess himself and not want to be handcuffed together by the tinest cuffs. 

I guess with deployment coming up I am on edge.
Thanks for reading,


Lindsey